Last Kiss Goodnight...

I lean against a tree, consumed by deep thoughts. Would I be the same again if I never met you? I look at the horizon, staring for any sunshine to see. I walk around wondering where you are then I realize that you're not there. Like the rain I shed a silent tear. The saddest thing is that I met someone who means a lot to me, only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and I have to let it go. I have to let the sun be free and let it shine again.

I never thought I would age while my heart stayed young. Somewhere between glazed eyes and looks we lost sight of what could have been. Maybe tomorrow...Tomorrow things will change. We will love like the world is ours. You and me eternally...

For now I am waiting for the arrow to reach you and you'd feel the same. Like a frozen time my love has been frozen and yours still miles away. Acknowledge you do not, peacefully you sleep every night. Distance away I toss and turn for one-way love. I dream bad dreams in the darkness of the night and am always surprised to find my love grows by the day. I am scared that I am going to be so consumed by this dangerous loving and I end up losing my sanity, for part-time love is just what it says on the tin.

I don't know when things changed, or when I realized my life never felt so surreal. Is this insane? You see how crazy I have become? It is maddening... I am wishing for tomorrow, hating today and smiling at yesterday when I locked eyes with you.

Each time I say goodbye, a piece of my heart dies. Every time I look into your eyes, I see only emptiness. How can I stop the painful beating of my heart? I walk this path alone; days stretch to years, but not one inch of pain fades way. So allow me to hate you under my heart's own will. Let me hate you for all those days I waited for your call. Let me hate you for those sleepless nights I spend thinking of you. The days spend staring lazily out the window, mesmerize by the showers of rain tapping against the glass. Allow me to forget you, and close this chapter of my life. Don’t take away this rage as it is the only passion my body thrives on. Allow my heart time to love again.

I cannot take this any longer; I am kissing you for the last time. Life once had a meaning, and my soul was alive at some point. As quickly as it came it died. Eyes closed; let me reminisce for one last moment. The feelings won’t subside…but if I am to die this very moment, I am glad I could tell you how much you mean to me and I will always miss you. For now the flame of love is burning its last torch and I am kissing you goodnight.